Comic books have been a part of my life for nearly 25 years, and though there have certainly been seasons during which I have been forced temporarily to lay them aside, those seasons have been rare and brief, and I’ve always found a way to get them back in short order.  Over the last couple of weeks, I have been forced to take a hard look at my life and my priorities, and after a close (and at times, emotionally trying) evalution, I have decided to suspend my pursuit of this beloved hobby.  

How did it come to this, you might ask?  For the answer to that, I will direct you to the following story.

About a week and a half ago, a comic book website was searching for new writers, and I expressed my interest in the position.  It was a volunteer opportunity, but I had always wanted to write about comics in a forum from which I might have the opportunity to talk to–perhaps, even meet–some of the creators whose work I enjoyed so much.  The email conversations with the EIC and CEO were wonderful, and about a week after I submitted a writing sample to them, they invited me to join the team.  I was elated, and honored to have a chance to write for the site.  I chose the pseudonym under which I would publish, the publisher team to which I wanted to belong, and began preparations for assignments.

But then, reality hit.  I began to think about the fact that I have a son on the way, who is due to arrive on or before February 24–and, by extension, the necessary medical expenses that we will incur as a part of the deal.  I remembered that my wife and I had planned to enroll our daughter in our church preschool at some point this year, and the expense that would add to an already strained budget. Looking at the numbers, my wife said that we couldn’t afford the latter, and that we would probably have to ask for money for my daughter’s birthday so that we could afford it. And that’s when it hit me: I was spending around $40 a month on comics (plus the gas to drive back and forth to the shop once a week), and (in part) because of that, my daughter couldn’t go to preschool. 

I have two goals in life: to be the best follower of Jesus I can be, and to be the best husband and Daddy possible. I would be failing in both if I robbed my daughter of a chance to grow and develop so I could continue pursuing a hobby. I realized then and there that comics would have to go.

Well, obviously–if I’m not buying comics, I can’t write about comics.  So, only one day after receiving all my credentials, I messaged the CEO and EIC of the site, apologized, and explained my decision. The conversation was great, and I greatly appreciated the mercy and grace they extended to me in allowing me to step away.  

I won’t lie: this has been a harder decision than I thought it would be.  I had just written a review of Captain Atom #5 for the site that will likely never be published (and I spent three hours doing it). I never even got to see my pseudonym “up in lights,” as it were (though that shouldn’t really matter, anyway).  But the hardest part for me is walking away from something that has brought me joy–and no small measure of escape–over the last 23 years.  My wife has graciously suggested that I buy just a couple of digital titles, and indeed, I may be able to accomodate a small purchase in my budget.

It won’t be the same.  And yet, though the decision has been difficult, I do not regret it; I would give up far more than this for my God and my family.  So, friends, I bid you “adieu,” as this will be the final post on this blog.  I will leave it active for only a while longer, and then I will close its doors for good. I have enjoyed reading comics and talking about them with you.  Thanks so much for taking the time to read the opinions of this nobody from nowhere; the time you spent reading and conversing with me means more than you will ever know.

Thanks again, and keep reading, true believers.

Why Tim Drake Matters

Posted: January 10, 2012 in Uncategorized

The year was 1989, and I was an awkward 11-year old boy sorely in need of a hobby.  I was reared by wonderful parents in a small town–the kind of place where mundane was a way of life, but where amazing things seldom occurred outside of one’s dreams.  I was something of a “dabbler” when it came to my pastimes:  I had “dabbled” with piano lessons (though I don’t remember attending a single lesson), dabbled with little league baseball, and even spent some time in week-long workshop with a magician at our local library, all in the hope of finding something to tickle my fancy, something to ignite the fires of my imagination and give me something on which to pour all of my pent-up, pre-adolescent energy.  At that point, outside of devouring novels like Goldfish crackers, I had found nothing to fit the bill.

And then, it happened–summer, 1989.  The Year of the  Bat. Tim Burton’s twisted interpretation of Batman gripped me like nothing had ever done before, and after multiple viewings, I finally decided that I had found precisely that for which I was looking.  I purchased my first comic book from Waldenbooks (Detective Comics #605, a copy of which resides in my safe at home), and settled in to my new favorite pastime.

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 Around that same time, I purchased another comic book, the cover of which featured a grown man staring pensively at a costume bedecked in bright yellow, red, and green–the unmistakeable pallette of Robin, the Boy Wonder.  Above this man were the grim silhouettes of Batman and a rather lizard-like gentleman (whose moniker, I would later learn, was “Two-Face”).  Tucked away in the right corner of this cover was a young boy, clothed in a leather jacket and faded blue jeans, looking at the man and the Robin suit with mouth agape and eyes filled with innocence and wonder.  

The boy’s name was Tim Drake.  And though I did not yet realize it, he would make an indelible mark on my life that remains to this day.

If Batman was the character that got me interested in comics, Tim Drake was responsible for keeping me there.  The story of his transformation from curious young boy to potential Boy Wonder found me at a time in my life when my boyish dreams of greatness still hung ripe on the vine, ready to be plucked and consumed.  The idea that a young person–someone near my own age!– could aspire to become a hero and succeed in that endeavor was infectious to me.  I couldn’t get it out of my head.  I knew that Batman had lost a Robin before Tim, knew that Batman claimed not to want or need the assistance of anyone, and though I understood the power of the lone Dark Knight’s image, I couldn’t help but agree with young Tim as he pled his case to his hero:

“Batman needs Robin. No matter what he thinks he wants.”

I followed his story carefully over the next months and years, waiting with baited breath as issue after issue passed with little to no mention of Tim.  He had become a figurehead for me, a character that resonated with me like no other had before, and the anticipation of seeing Tim suit up and fight crime alongside of Batman was palpable whenever a new issue would hit the stands.  And when it finally happened–when Tim donned the red, green, yellow, and black in all of its Breyfoglesque glory–I was elated.  Batman and Robin were together again.  

See, Tim Drake has always been my Robin.  I read as he took his first steps into this brave, new world.  I followed him as he traveled to Europe for training with Lady Shiva, as he faced the Joker for the first time, as he came into his own and starred in his long-running solo title, as he succumbed to a deadly virus in the Contagion crossover, and gradually assumed more responsibilty and earned more respect within the Bat-family.  I rejoiced when he assumed leadership over the Teen Titans, and grieved when his father was murdered.  And when Damian Wayne was handed the suit in the aftermath of Bruce Wayne’s “death” forcing Tim to assume the mantle of Red Robin, I too felt betrayed.  

But when the New 52 initiative was announced–with no mention of a solo book featuring Tim Drake–I really began to worry that he was going to be marginalized in this new universe.  Yes, he was given a starring role in Teen Titans, but now that five months have passed since the relaunch, it’s safe to say that there’s been barely a hint of Tim’s relationship with the rest of the Bat-family in either Titans or the Bat-books.  It doesn’t feel right to me, not at all, and his exclusion (temporary or not) from the narratives that spawned him gives one the impression that Tim Drake just doesn’t matter.

But he does matter. He matters to me, and to countless other fans who never knew Dick Grayson or Jason Todd as the Boy Wonder.  He matters to those of us who, in our prepubescent awkwardness, found in Tim Drake the courage to believe ourselves capable of more than we could ever have imagined.  Tim Drake represents the hope of every young boy and girl whose dreams are cruelly tread upon by the harsh realities of life–the hope that with a lot of work and a little luck, they too might be able to rise from the muck and become larger than life, a hero whose exploits will be praised and sung for ages to come. 

I know Tim Drake does matter to the powers that be at DC Comics.  I appreciate what Scott Lobdell and Brett Booth are doing with him in Teen Titans, and I appreciate DC for trying new things with different characters.  But I still hold out hope that one day in the not too distant future, Tim Drake will be free spread his wings and fly in his own solo title once again, and that he will rejoin his Bat-family brothers and sisters in Gotham.  It’s where he really belongs, after all.

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Uncanny X-Men #1 (Written by Kieron Gillen; Art by Carlos Pacheco)

The Lowdown: I didn’t read Schism, which is apparently pretty important.  I did read enough to know that Cyclops and Wolverine had a philosophical falling-out, and each departed to do their own thing with their own teams.  Uncanny X-Men follows the adventure of Cyclops and his “Extinction Team” (I don’t know why it’s called that) as they attempt to continue their mission of saving (and scaring) the world.  There are a lot of other teams under Cyclops’ umbrella, but this one seems to be the A-team of sorts.  Much of the issue is focused on introducing us to the team members and allowing us to see them in action against a big bad named Mr. Sinister, whose presence might resonate with long-time X-Men fans, but for me, just left me scratching my head a bit.

The Good:  Well, there’s a lot, actually, but I promised to keep it brief.  I’m intrigued by Cyclops’ strategy here, and I think the team he’s built is perfect for the “Scare ‘em and save ‘em” mission statement he has going on.  The action sequences are solid, and the premise of having several smaller teams executing various tasks in concert with one another is quite fascinating.  The opening sequence with Sinister was chilling, and much stronger (in my opinion) than the final sequences of the book, which just left me scratching my head.  The art is gorgeous throughout.

The Bad: I still don’t really know who half these people are.  No, I haven’t been following the X-Men since dinosaurs roamed the Earth. I am a new reader, and from a new reader perspective, this book left some things to be desired.  I don’t understand the villain or his motives.  I don’t get the final page (and I might, had I some experience with these characters outside of the movies). And where did the big robot come from? 

Overall: I enjoyed the book, even if it puzzled me a bit. Not nearly as new reader friendly as most of DC’s New 52, but a promising start, nonetheless.  I just wasn’t blown away.

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Wolverine and the X-Men #1 (Written by Jason Aaron; Art by Chris Bachalo)

The Lowdown: Wolverine opens a school that’s also a training center and a deathtrap.  He wears a suit and gives a tour to a couple of shirts who hold the future of the school in their prejudiced, stingy little claws.  Hilarity ensues.

The Good: The concept is interesting, I’ll say that for sure.  The idea of Wolverine as the headmaster of a school is an intentionally laugable one, and Aaron wisely plays it as such in this book.  This, too, is an interesting cast, and one that promises a great deal of fun and drama in future installments.  Aaron’s dialogue is fun. Mostly.

The Bad: I didn’t love the art.  At all, really.  And the pace of the book was too slow for me; I actually fell asleep in the middle of it, which (I’m certain) was not the intent of the creative team. The problem for me is that while I understood that the concept was being played for laughs, I didn’t really find it that funny. Mostly, it came across as a bit self-indulgent, and it just turned me off a bit on the whole premise.

Overall: Well, people seemed to love it, but it wasn’t for me. It took two readings for me just to finish the thing. Needless to say, I wasn’t really impressed with this corner of the X-verse.

DECISION TIME: As I’ve already stated, I was not really invested in the the X-verse before these latest #1s; I purchased these books, thinking that they might be a good way to gain entrance into a world that has previously been a bit unaccessible to me.  Though I was entertained by Uncanny X-Men #1, I was ultimately unpersuaded to pursue it further than one issue.  I wish both creative teams well, but for now, I’ll stick with my monthly DC books.